Fembuelita

My journey from femboy twink to hot lesbian grandma

Shiloh

  • Every day is a new day

    And everyday, I still think of him. Maybe I should just ask him out again? Will it work, this time, overseas and all? No. It won’t. I can’t, I will end up becoming angry at taking it out him, again, and again. Just like last time. Why? This is so, because I can’t control myself Read more

  • I can’t get him out of my head! Why?! Not that I want to, but why am I always thinking of him? Every little thing reminds me of him! What is it that drives this absurd thought process? Is this love or is this obsession? Obsession of love, maybe? I know this not, and not Read more

  • Breakthru

    So I’m listening to Queen right now (like usual). “Breakthru” is the title of the song. The lyrics that keep relating to me are “Somehow I have to make this final breakthru.” This applies to me everyday and everynight, I constantly have a struggle going on. I am constantly battling something, searching for an escape, Read more

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  • Are we there yet?

    Sigh… Just a few months longer, hang in there Elliott. Read more

  • Heavy Burden

    Oh my god. I feel soooooo freaking terrible. I don’t know what to do. It’s the one thing I can’t talk about, the only secret I really have. It’s so private I can’t even post about it on here. I just need to acknoweldge that I feel the worst I’ve felt in ages about it. Read more

  • New And Improved?

    Welcome to 2006. New Year’s eve was a blast. I loved it. Had a lot of fun partying with my friend Micah. I’m all moved out now. All moved in, too. Can’t come online much, cos they’re on dial up and their PC sucks. Thanks to Rich for alloting me more time to pay him Read more

  • Chronicals of Ellister

    Wow. What a busy month. Holiday season at all. Between retail and the food service, work has been ubelievably busy, especially the last few days. Tonight was amazingly hectic, I was ambushed from the moment I walked in. Was in photo tonight at Shopko. Some lady deposited 3 memory sticks from her digital camera, and Read more

  • Remote

    I am remote. An infidel to this obscure world. I put a step forward and am drawn back 3. I am torn by the emotional self conflicts I have. I am scarred by the relationship with Greg. I am burden by the stress of work, school, and family. I am succumbed into remorse for a Read more

  • Hurts to be away, hurts to be with. Where is the escape? Read more