Talk about taking it in the back. Seriously. –Allow me to elaborate. Since I have “come out” (“again”), I’ve received a lot of mixed responses. What’s ironic about these responses, though, is that 98% of the “straight” people whom I’ve told have been very, very encouraging and accepting; whereas when I came out the first time, it was rather very opposite. Interestingly enough, when it comes to the gay community, I repeat: put it in the back.

I feel that’s exactly where they are placing their daggers of emotional poison. These daggers instead of killing you warp you into an outcast.

So I’ve always been a little iffy on the whole “bisexuality” thing. I would call them fenceriders, I’d tell them they just can’t handle society being against them for their own sexual preference. I was a jerk to them. (Hello, my name is Karma!) I even was dumped by a guy for a woman not even 2 months ago, and I left him some pretty mean messages over it for being himself, because I did not understand.

Haha. Karma, you’re a bitch.

So, here I am, coming out as Elliott, who likes people for themselves, not for their genders. You know, a person is amazing if they are amazing. If you happen to also be attracted to them, then great. Just be with who makes you happy. Anyway, I digress.

I’ve had so many of my gay and lesbian friends turn on me for this. It’s getting ridiculous. Okay, people, I understand where you are coming from: You think that I’m betraying you; you think I’m insulting you; you think I’m confused and going through a phase….well you know what? As a friend of mine put it, the gay movement is about equal rights for everybody, and about discovering your own identity. Not fitting into some stereotypical embodiment that is portrayed by the media on Will and Grace. Seriously, when people come out don’t they usually become a little more enlightened by seeing all the hatred and mistreatment? Haven’t you all experienced what it’s like to not be accepted? Why would you cast that shadow of disapproval unto someone else? As reality sets in, I’m quite perturbed by this. I have spent so much time of my life fighting and working for the gay movement, and the moment I start to accept myself completely is the moment I’m shunned.

I won’t lie, I’m kind of pissed off about this. At one point in my life, I think I would have been hurt, but for better or worse I can say that I have experienced a vast multitude of people whom have not accepted me for whom I am–friends included. What bothers me is the fact that the people who are turning on me now are the people who I never would have expected them to be so resenting. I don’t know why I’m letting it bother me so much. It’s just infuriating to think though that the very people who complain so much (and believe me, I can very certainly vouch for just how much gay people complain about this topic) in regard to equal rights and being accepted and equal treatment, the very same people, they live in their mighty fortresses and look down upon others just as others have done to them. Yet somehow, because they’re different in a better manner than I am, this deems their behavior and attitude proper and acceptable?

Well, to all of you haters out there, I could think of words for you, but I think I’ll leave it summed up at “your own fucking loss.”