Hello everyone! 🙂

Thankfully, I’m still alive. So I just read every single one of my posts that I’ve written on here and I must say… Wow have I changed (and hopefully matured a little bit!)

I couldn’t help but to notice my hipocrisies (sp?) throughout my journal posts. For instance, several days after I break up with Greg I’m looking into dating Somsak, but when Lucas starts dating “Glitter” (who I think they’re still mostly together — congrats boys), I got super pissed. I mean, not to say it wasn’t shitty what he did, and the only apology I got out of all of that was a drunk voicemail on my phone a couple of months ago telling me he’s sorry for being an ass and telling me to call him back (which I ignored), but I was so upset with him and didn’t even notice myself doing the same things!! God!! Anyway.

So you’re probably wondering “Why are you suddenly posting almost 2 years after your last post?” Well, truthfully, I just ended yet another relationship, and I’m still trying to quit smoking. So, in a lot of ways, things haven’t changed.

We’ll get to the relationship in a minute (or several paragraphs, depending on how fast you read.) Let’s give you all an update on what HAS changed in my life.

A) I’m in college.
B) I’m studying French and German, instead of just German.
C) I’m planning on majoring in accounting.
D) I will probably study abroad in France.
E) I own a puppy and a kitty. The puppy, who is named Jacques-Gustaf (call him Jacques), is about 6 months, and the kitty, who is named Cazu-dior (call her Cazu), is about 8 weeks. They’re adorable. I’ll see if I can post pictures later.
F) I’m living in Wausau again (I’m not sure if I was in Wausau or Stevens Point during my previous posting–I think Wausau still…)
G) I do my homework and get good grades now
H) I only work one job — part time.
I) I don’t have many friends anymore.
J) I’m no longer the huge bisexual hormones on legs as I was before. (you’ll find I probably won’t discuss how “fuckable” people are as I previously have in these journals..you know, when I was 16 and nothing penetrated my thoughts like testosterone.
K) I consider myself completely gay now, not bisexual.
L) I’ve discovered there is more to me than being gay. Before my life was being gay, and now being gay is part of my life…I think that’s how it should be.

Some things that haven’t changed….
A) I’m still struggling with quitting smoking (although I’m doing really good lately.)
B) I still have shit luck with relationships
C) I’m still in debt
D) I still haven’t moved to England

And, well, I’m sure there is plenty more things that have and have not changed, but I’m losing interest in thinking of them, so let’s proceed.

As we speak, I am procrastinating writing my persuasive powerpoint speech on why separation of church and state doesn’t truly exist, and how/why it should. I am also procrastinating on studying for my huge accounting exam on Wednesday. I am also taking a shit as I write this.

Speaking of shit. My ex-boyfriend’s mother just came home and is now talking to me, and ironically enough my ex-boyfriend is now calling me. I’m also seeing a different ex-boyfriend’s mother tomorrow (Lucas’s mom, actually) because I’m going tanning at the business she owns. This all sounds really strange I’m sure, but I will fill you all in soon enough–like tomorrow or something.

K bai.