Oh my god. I feel soooooo freaking terrible. I don’t know what to do. It’s the one thing I can’t talk about, the only secret I really have. It’s so private I can’t even post about it on here. I just need to acknoweldge that I feel the worst I’ve felt in ages about it. I should have just let things be. Don’t push things that just weren’t met to be. God I was stupid. Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! Argh! Email writ and apology sent, I still feel shitty. I hope I can talk to the person and apologize in face, I may feel better then. Until that time comes though, I am guilt ridden. Damnit.