It’s been nearly 2 weeks since I posted, and my life has been a never ending circle of dominoes: it seems every time I am caught up on one thing there is another to knock me off my course again, “every action has an equal and opposite reaction” sorta deal.

Guess I’ll start with the major things: Still have a boyfriend and feel we are getting closer every day, can’t help but to love him. 🙂 Bought a plane ticket to england in november, i’ll talk more about that in another blog, too tired for it now. At any rate, I’m super pumped for it, I need a vacation and I need to be with the one who truly loves me, even if it is only for a brisk 5 days: it is all I have now, and it will be the spurt I need to make it another year or so without seeing him in person.

Got hired at ShopKo. I will be an electronics specialist on the weekends (their job title, not mine :P), and a sales floor associate (half and half on this one, haha) during the weekdays. I start orientation on the 2nd, I am looking forward to it actually: if I get get enough hours there I will be quitting chapter 2. If not, I will stay at chapter 2 until I can pay off the debt I’m going into for England trip. Should be out of there by 2006 at the latest, I hope.

There is another factor which could change that goal though: I am sticking to my word of moving out in January. To break free from this thought process would greatly ease the stress I have encumbering my already occupied mind, but I cannot just simply abandon the thought, I need to do this. Why do I need to do this? For a variety of reasons: I am ever growing closer to the legal age of an adult, and when that happens, there is a large chance i am to be forced out of this home either way, and I’d rather be prepped and do it by choice if that is the case. Another reason is the family I would be moving in with supposedly, they are some of the greatest people I know, they have been my spine in hardships before, and I think the general atmosphere of the house will be a much more caring and supportive one that which I am currently living in right now (except the excessive smoking, that will not be good for many reasons — mostly health — but take the bad with the good I guess). Finally, the last reason and perhaps the most important, is money.

It all boils down to money, money is after all, society’s weapon of choice. I recieve 600 some dollars a month in social security money which goes directly to my mother to provide for my general wellfare; however, this money is managed poorly, and if I move out, I’m taking it with me, it is mine in any case. This money will help me pay bills, as well as save up for college and either my going back to England, or the more likely option (as of now, it keeps switching anyways), get Greg to come here, and we’d go to college together here. 🙂 Sounds romantic either way though, two young bisexual males changing their lives so they can finally elope 😛 Should be fun.

School is going pretty well, i have aborted the option of night classes next semester as my counselor and I have sorted things straight now. Assuming I pass all 9 of my classes this semester, make up some work for a class I recieved an I in last year to recieve a new letter grade, my 9 classes next semester and two semesters of summer school, I will graduate. It already is a lot of hard work, and I can only imagine it becoming harder and harder as time progresses, but I am determined, motivated and orientated to focus on these goals and their success. I have screwed up the last 11 years, which just so happens to be 3 too many, time to set things right, Elliott.

In my “free time” *laughs hysterically* ahem, excuse me… or what shrinking portion of it I have, I have been writing a story. I have decided that I want to give writing a shot: I know my blog entries aren’t exactly JK Rowling or JRR Tolkien, but I do feel that when I am trying to articulate my thoughts and write fluently, I have the ability to do so. If you are interested in reading what I have, let me know by comments, emails, or an instant messenger or something. I know the story line is rough, but I am more focusing on the literary elements and character development and descriptions as practice. This is for when I have a real story, something with more zest, potential and planning, the story will not have been wasted by amatuer writing. Practice makes perfect, and perfection makes money and entertainment — I love to write.

With that, I am going to bed. Good night friends, fellow bloggers, communist spies, parse search engines and blog.

PS: I would really love to finally get some comments on my posts, or atleast some acknowledgement people are reading this… 😉